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Not a black sheep.

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the problem w ur question is that u cant really answer it sufficiently without much more information. do we know what heaven is like? do u have experience of god? have you done anything extraordinary with your experience? fact is most people lead boring lives, y do u think evil is such a sellout in the morning news? people are “evil” bc they came into the world as sheep, following other senseless boring sheep – tempting eventually the wolves to eat them, whenever they stray to far from the “good” shepherd. wolves are not “evil” actually they are just doing what comes natural to them. the “good” shepherd is really a sheep who has learned to think like a wolf. of course there is also the wolf disguised as sheep…

what we consider “evil” is a necessary state of mind for us to consider alternative options. we are usually so comfortable at home, with all the amenities we presume that we only really need, until reality check hits us because it bounced. we dont know what real evil is until we go out and start exploring, evil is not just all the things that could go wrong, its also that tiny feeling that were missing the mark: were not getting anywhere with what were doing, were not satisfied w just success, and were not giving up unless stars come falling from the sky. we are determined to live our lives right, just like the way it was before, just like everybody else – determination therefore is evil. u chose ur unswerving path towards destruction…

well your question is not just about judeo-christian gods being impossible, the trick is to include at least enough of some of the other attributes of god in order to begin to understand him, because no attribute exists by itself. in fact god is plural, but from our perspective he is one. lets take a detour and talk about trees… why is it possible for trees to grow up strong and stout? it is most likely bc as they grow up they also grow down? u understand what it means to have a strong foundation? so much evil exists bc god is reaching down for support. its not that hard to visualize heaven as a mind field of faster than light instantaneous desire happening all at once, at current state of being would not be able to handle a fraction of such infinite pleasure bearing down on us, therefore god is also a preserving force protecting our characters from erosion by the ravages of time…

what would a tree wish for, that was harboring the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil? how about a tree of life? Or a fake plastic christmas tree? wouldnt you rather desire to be useful if you had the ability to think? What is your intellect good for if it did not have a purpose? the trees wish could be simpleminded, but secure: the present may not be able to solve the problems of the past, but steady progress can pave the way to a greener future. the three main believers for unity interpret the meaning of such progress in their own way: jews choose to learn, christians choose to love, and moslems choose to surrender. if you want one god then unity is ur piece of cake, u must carry at least one of those three qualities. if u want no god, except perhaps urself, but of course u will never want to call urself god then buddhist philosophy is the knowledge that provides the cake… i could go on about old school hinduism and many gods… or some standard atheist perspective of bypassing god by failing to define an acceptable god at all, which causes them to give themselves a pat in the back for proving that somehow their idea of god is unacceptable.

believing is only a matter of choosing, it seems like you have so many choices, that you might even end up w the worst possible choice if you so choose not to choose. in reality you are still just a limited thinking sheep, and u can never go beyond that fence, if the master sheep has ever built his fences right. your limitations are there to protect you so thtat you can have as much freedom as you want in as far as youre capable of freedom. dont get me wrong, i do believe in god, but as far as i can tell i have avoided discussing more important attributes. i think our primary task in this world is to discover how to become a master sheep, before moving on to the next sublevel of sheepdom. bible stories are just the garments in which the living word of god is garbed, if the bible were written in modern times then it would have modern clothes. but people forget the body is much more important, and more importantly the soul, but to be truly complete u must also know the mind… that is a quote from in my own words.


marami ako kaibigan, dahil ako ay palatawa.
marami akong nagagawa na kakaiba.
hindi ko lang alam paano magsalita.
hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit.
ewan ko ba kung marunong ako.

minsan naisip ko bakit ganito?
minsan kung wala sila wala ring bago.
bakit kaya parang may nabigo.
bakit di ko kaya sariling maglaro.
mahirap na kung makita ko ang muka ko.

sana walang katapusan ang feeling na to.
sana lahat ng tao meron ganito.
kahit di ginto parang bago.
kahit sarado ang pinto may paraan.
kung pwede lang umibig ng magisa…

So Wrong, It's Right

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i always think opposite of you
whatever i say is wrong
is wrong with you

you say im stupid
i say im strong
youre so a kidding right?

well maybe another story will suffice
if you cannot bear with me
go suck ice!

truth is everybody does not care
not in the very least
not at the very same time

who am i to please the myriad adventurers?
why do i have to deal with the fucking triad!
good-bad-ugly all on the same side

alone with my friends i am quite
better to stick together on family night fights
i cannot think for a second without a doubt

no clue if forever will remember my demand
till im blue in the dark i make my own stand
not to be damned with the lunatics that hardly only try

Straight Out of Line

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like everyone else i cannot choose very well, but choices i make rather chose me to fight more battles that cannot be won.

there are many aspects of life i would like to illuminate more, but my weapon of choice – a mere candlestick.

attack of the killer bores

i attempt to describe this magic feeling i have. why crazy has a different meaning to me than to you. perhaps people will not understand? the important thing is that i do. i feel like doing something impossible everyday, something like trying to please everybody from this place where i stay. sadly, though it maybe alright – i find the real world is quite a different adversary from yesterday. so i must limit my adventures to small magic kingdoms to face the very real monsters called family.

bewitching hour

time for indifference, you cannot change what you are, why should you listen to the rabble of stoned executioners? they will kill themselves before they kill you. sometimes i hypnotize myself into thinking i could have a better life, better than the sameness of everyday for everyone. i would like very much to explore and be a part of life once again but realize my priorities would hardly ever budge. so i ration my time and attempt to rationalize the simple benefits of a simple plan.

defense against the ids

many a selfless saints have died in their place, misunderstood more than we care to emulate. what was their cause? to make the world a better place? to find the ultimate treasure from out of the wastes? i think ive lost my soul along the journey to be creative. to be single and simple is probably stupid. i stop for a while, to look at my map, not any closer to eternity than when i first began. now i even as i realize it’s not important, its way too far to turn back. i turn to any given definition for solace then enjoy myself while i can.

mirror mountain

it was too long ago that i made a pact with darkness: i will leave her alone if she will leave me alone. from time to time darkness brings company, i wouldnt mind so much but sometimes misery and his boring friends manage to find us. it was one of those nights with darkness when she called me out. i do not belong here she says, i cannot take care of my own affairs, so i must mind my own business. she drew long straight line across the sand, she says i must define for her what it means to be on the other side. as far as i could see the line was endless, then if i tried to move myself the line moved along with me. the line was of course the horizon, i know it now. back then she had offered me a clue: if i could teach darkness something new, then i might even get a headstart… and so the journey began, without reason, nor why – with my hearts compass as my guide, i pursued her.

Grown-ups are obsolete

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people in love

cage is your friend. lets just pretend that you are not a slave but a godsend. you are wild and expectant, an imagination pregnant with possibilities – you are surrounded by an incredible lightness of being. i want to grow old with you.

people indifferent

fade is your color mostly less. gray is just as gay as your meaningless monotone wife. you would like to have some action, but you life is full of suction – you are captured by an aura of heartless neglect. i dont want to grow mold with you.

people indignant

rage is your blind side. people can trample just like a bull and everything is red. everything alive and happy should be dead. it doesnt matter if you have a heartache or a heart attack – the madness must be fed. i cant stop scolding you.

people in danger

change is your saviour, make way for man of the hour! taste the rainbow before it turns sour. you open doors relievedly, no need to wait and forget about fate, innocence is sold – its time to die or be deadly. u dont have to say i told you…