Posts Tagged ‘crazy’


Straight Out of Line

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like everyone else i cannot choose very well, but choices i make rather chose me to fight more battles that cannot be won.

there are many aspects of life i would like to illuminate more, but my weapon of choice – a mere candlestick.

attack of the killer bores

i attempt to describe this magic feeling i have. why crazy has a different meaning to me than to you. perhaps people will not understand? the important thing is that i do. i feel like doing something impossible everyday, something like trying to please everybody from this place where i stay. sadly, though it maybe alright – i find the real world is quite a different adversary from yesterday. so i must limit my adventures to small magic kingdoms to face the very real monsters called family.

bewitching hour

time for indifference, you cannot change what you are, why should you listen to the rabble of stoned executioners? they will kill themselves before they kill you. sometimes i hypnotize myself into thinking i could have a better life, better than the sameness of everyday for everyone. i would like very much to explore and be a part of life once again but realize my priorities would hardly ever budge. so i ration my time and attempt to rationalize the simple benefits of a simple plan.

defense against the ids

many a selfless saints have died in their place, misunderstood more than we care to emulate. what was their cause? to make the world a better place? to find the ultimate treasure from out of the wastes? i think ive lost my soul along the journey to be creative. to be single and simple is probably stupid. i stop for a while, to look at my map, not any closer to eternity than when i first began. now i even as i realize it’s not important, its way too far to turn back. i turn to any given definition for solace then enjoy myself while i can.

mirror mountain

it was too long ago that i made a pact with darkness: i will leave her alone if she will leave me alone. from time to time darkness brings company, i wouldnt mind so much but sometimes misery and his boring friends manage to find us. it was one of those nights with darkness when she called me out. i do not belong here she says, i cannot take care of my own affairs, so i must mind my own business. she drew long straight line across the sand, she says i must define for her what it means to be on the other side. as far as i could see the line was endless, then if i tried to move myself the line moved along with me. the line was of course the horizon, i know it now. back then she had offered me a clue: if i could teach darkness something new, then i might even get a headstart… and so the journey began, without reason, nor why – with my hearts compass as my guide, i pursued her.


dont be a loser, share your blessings. get something from nothing by telling people about your ideas. communication is key to getting what you want, so if the door is closed, try knocking. get your foot in the door if it ever opens, but if not then consider other doors. try until success, make mistakes but not the same ones, and always learn. watch your steps before you move on.

you dont have to be happy all the time to be a happy person. theres no rule that says you must take your medication all the time everytime you are sick. assuming you are sick, you can heal yourself. only consider for a second that there’s nothing wrong with you, what would you fix? other people? perhaps even consider that the only thing wrong with you is that you are trying to fix something that’s not broken to begin with.

people begin to define crazy things by assuming this separate thing somehow works different from the rest of the universe. whos not really crazy in their own way in this crazy world, that is just normal. strangeness implies some kind of limitation on the part of our understanding. when we refuse to understand the why of the limitation we become strangers to the world, crazy in our own way.

now if you accept that you are crazy, you begin to realize certain things. the only things keeping you from being sane is your mistaken view that you have to remain crazy. people are defined as sane when they deal with people in an expected manner, even if something quite unexpected happens, people still have expectations for what they define as sane. if you just let go of your expectations, a crazy thing happens, you’re back to being an unexpected average guy – normal yet sane.

suggestion: stop labeling people as fake and see things as they really are because when you choose to focus on fake stuff all you get is a manipulation. true happiness comes from your actually being happy, it’s as simple as forcing a smile, except when you feel like you cannot – you still actually can. emotions can come later because your body is like a mask. as you act so will your thinking be.

when you don’t feel happy even truly happy people will look fake to you, because you will be sapping their energy. what do you expect? if you are feeling emptiness, then you’re thinking like hungry man – everybody else would look fat to you. sooner or later either misery loves company or you will be alone again naturally.

also, don’t work yourself up about those other people who make the news by becoming infamous, giving bad examples just proves that you can really like things that you say you dont like. your happiness is all up to your imagination, your only task is to choose what you like about certain things and why, but its a challenge. life wouldn’t be so interresting if you always knew what to do.