Posts Tagged ‘Future’


Not a black sheep.

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the problem w ur question is that u cant really answer it sufficiently without much more information. do we know what heaven is like? do u have experience of god? have you done anything extraordinary with your experience? fact is most people lead boring lives, y do u think evil is such a sellout in the morning news? people are “evil” bc they came into the world as sheep, following other senseless boring sheep – tempting eventually the wolves to eat them, whenever they stray to far from the “good” shepherd. wolves are not “evil” actually they are just doing what comes natural to them. the “good” shepherd is really a sheep who has learned to think like a wolf. of course there is also the wolf disguised as sheep…

what we consider “evil” is a necessary state of mind for us to consider alternative options. we are usually so comfortable at home, with all the amenities we presume that we only really need, until reality check hits us because it bounced. we dont know what real evil is until we go out and start exploring, evil is not just all the things that could go wrong, its also that tiny feeling that were missing the mark: were not getting anywhere with what were doing, were not satisfied w just success, and were not giving up unless stars come falling from the sky. we are determined to live our lives right, just like the way it was before, just like everybody else – determination therefore is evil. u chose ur unswerving path towards destruction…

well your question is not just about judeo-christian gods being impossible, the trick is to include at least enough of some of the other attributes of god in order to begin to understand him, because no attribute exists by itself. in fact god is plural, but from our perspective he is one. lets take a detour and talk about trees… why is it possible for trees to grow up strong and stout? it is most likely bc as they grow up they also grow down? u understand what it means to have a strong foundation? so much evil exists bc god is reaching down for support. its not that hard to visualize heaven as a mind field of faster than light instantaneous desire happening all at once, at current state of being would not be able to handle a fraction of such infinite pleasure bearing down on us, therefore god is also a preserving force protecting our characters from erosion by the ravages of time…

what would a tree wish for, that was harboring the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil? how about a tree of life? Or a fake plastic christmas tree? wouldnt you rather desire to be useful if you had the ability to think? What is your intellect good for if it did not have a purpose? the trees wish could be simpleminded, but secure: the present may not be able to solve the problems of the past, but steady progress can pave the way to a greener future. the three main believers for unity interpret the meaning of such progress in their own way: jews choose to learn, christians choose to love, and moslems choose to surrender. if you want one god then unity is ur piece of cake, u must carry at least one of those three qualities. if u want no god, except perhaps urself, but of course u will never want to call urself god then buddhist philosophy is the knowledge that provides the cake… i could go on about old school hinduism and many gods… or some standard atheist perspective of bypassing god by failing to define an acceptable god at all, which causes them to give themselves a pat in the back for proving that somehow their idea of god is unacceptable.

believing is only a matter of choosing, it seems like you have so many choices, that you might even end up w the worst possible choice if you so choose not to choose. in reality you are still just a limited thinking sheep, and u can never go beyond that fence, if the master sheep has ever built his fences right. your limitations are there to protect you so thtat you can have as much freedom as you want in as far as youre capable of freedom. dont get me wrong, i do believe in god, but as far as i can tell i have avoided discussing more important attributes. i think our primary task in this world is to discover how to become a master sheep, before moving on to the next sublevel of sheepdom. bible stories are just the garments in which the living word of god is garbed, if the bible were written in modern times then it would have modern clothes. but people forget the body is much more important, and more importantly the soul, but to be truly complete u must also know the mind… that is a quote from http://meetingtent.com in my own words.

enter the possibilities

Posted: January 27, 2011 in dream, time
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The mind of a web developer

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what shall i do with my time?

i wish to manage the clutter, i desire to have it done, i act on impulse and get something else done instead. out of my head and into the trash, into my bed away to dreamland. i figured out that ideas come to me quite easily after a short nap, but why waste even so much time on pointless activities. i think im bored so i got to keep awake. i think ive got to make sense and not so many mistakes. whatever rhymes is reason enough to forever find myself in a limbo of stuff.

now i think i should make room to study the world around me. being nearsighted never allows me to focus very far. at least i can type relatively faster than i write. at least i dont get tired as much as i write.

for now the future seems bright, hardly worth describing…


over see the fancy future boundless, unrestrained. look even over hearts cold as ice with no eyes to see and minds that wander with the flames. problem lies with thoughts of love for the enemy and her torturous ways. hear her voice like thorns on bare feet come to greet the day. that lovely melody which shatters all hope with melancholy. “what do you desire?” she purrs, as if a whisper might feign a stricture in her ears. stuck in her trance, the fears mix with glory, but paralyze with hallucinate. blood tears diminish innocence until only a shadowy descending madness remains. her hand of time would seal the final death note, and with a kiss crucify the lifeless to bills past due. so now with regard, kindly and cruelly,  accept your quarrel with this ease.


who is the winner? the guy who has the last laugh or the guy who manages the last breath… so should you just live for the day or plan for the future? if winning means losing everything, do you really want to win? i read naruto 510 today and i was astounded at how deeply into these questions the author made me think. i think it is sort of related to my original fb profile post some months back:

sometimes i wish i had a guide, a coach, or mentor but then i’m not one to follow instructions blindly. i would perhaps be over curious about the world, asking too many questions to get anything done, but then who says they are obligated to answer my questions anyway. since i cannot do anything about what i’ve got, i suppose then the only winning attitude left for me is to be glad that i got what i got, and deal.

at least i think i know that my passion is writing or something related to that. there is actually one major glitch that i foresee that might prevent me from writing without restraint: that is in the area of loving relationships. sure i can read up on the ways, but if i think about it – i don’t think i ever actually let myself fall in love, nor would i want to at this point in my life.

right now, i suppose that i am some sort of high maintainance man. my life is somewhat a mess, with all the meds i have to take and doctors visits to make sure im on the right track, it also takes supreme effort to maintain the minimal amount of messiness. although i rarely get mad, my opinions about anything change from day to day, depending on my mood. generally those opinions tend towards improvement, but you never know.

so now since i refuse to burn those bridges just yet, i am currently studying physical therapy with 50% effort, but the rest of the effort seems to be invested in everything else other than writing. sooner or later i’m gonna have to decide which is more important. i don’t know why i’m so afraid that i’ll give up on writing and start a family like any practical man of my age.

actually when i think about it, raising children and preparing for a whole new futures worth of possibilities seems to be the best compromise. i sacrifice one dream for a better dream, and i avoid the being famous trap that i’ve been trying to escape from called vanity. why do people want to change the world so much when they could change themselves and change the world as a sideffect as well. it may not be so obvious to look for the miracle cure within when most cures come from without.

since love is the answer to most questions, the final question comes to this: who do i love? i think its going to have to apply to everybody when i say, i’m going to have to love my self first, without a doubt. i shouldn’t have to criticize my actions, because that just negates the praise i give to my friends. if i don’t believe in my self, why should i believe in you? it comes down to that. even if i say i am just a man, spiritual masters agree – everyone has god inside. the only trouble is how to keep in touch even when you are busy.

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since my views have changed since then, its nice to see a little bit of development here and there. so here is what i learned:

the best teachers dispense their lessons according to the uniqueness of the student. it should not matter what your teacher really believes as long as he accomplishes the ultimate goal of letting you seek the required knowledge for yourself. no one knows what you need better than you. you develop passion by exercising the right to desire such needs.

in the end it doesnt matter what we believe as long as we believe it to be true. staying true to yourself is believing in yourself, whatever else we believe in comes from the confidence we make for ourselves.

here is an example of a particular belief system: first you must have faith to have hope, then you must have hope to have love, and out of love comes charity. when you give you reap what you sow, out of that comes truth, then understanding to forgive and be wise.

here is another: you must realize by now that you are ignorant. ignorance causes pain. when you suffer other people suffer. you must take away the log from your own eye before you can remove the needles from other peoples eyes. you must learn about the log and how it is related to yourself. you must use the right information at the right time and place to be enlightened.

the first is good for people who are goalcentric and the other is good for those who are social adrifts. since no one knows how the world really works, it is better to have faith in something that will improve your character rather than confuse it. thus it is often not necessary to change religions, which are like fads that come and go, rather its better to change perspective: explore your options, learn about why other people’s beliefs work for them. dont go too much with the flow and dont work too hard pursuing your own goals, but if you find you cannot maintain discipline maybe you worry too much of the consequences. there is always an exception somewhere though it’s not likely, you are an exception, but dont use that as an excuse.