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It's Not the End of the World, But I Can See I...

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as the story is not so often told, jesus went up to the mountain, where no one lives… to ask who knows what??? what could jesus possibly not understand? who knows how long he pondered the answer to the problem that we all certainly have… until he ran out of time, so definitely, he had to go back to the very beginning like for the second time (42)… he found himself thinking all over again – jesus was surprised to see him in this mountain where no one lives, so jesus appeared, to greet jesus too…

a-jesus says to b-jesus, buddy i know why you came here, i have the final solution – why dont you stop thinking about it and just do it… so b-jesus got the message… one of the jesuses will have to disappear forever, bc reading between the letters, the answer really means: “there can only be one.” anyway, if you think about it “jesuses” just doesnt sound as good as just plain “jesus…”

so the jesuses teleport to where many of the people are gathered, so suddenly they appear again with a knowing smile… jesus first, begins to situate himself on the ground… meanwhile jesus second, thrice attempts to draw a circle around… by this time one jesus is too ancient to sit on a tree, away from all the crowd… but the crowd is more amazed at the jesus who is causing so much traffic by drawing imperfect circles in the sand…

expecting a miracle, the crowd began to grow quiet as they were more and more hypnotized by the grating of the sand, but the first jesus was just tired and jesus too was only playing with strategies to make the imperfect circle sound… until one by one the crowd began to understand… that was the first time people have experienced circular reasoning… actually if jesus the question didnt draw these circles so persistently then jesus the answer would have died from crossing the road… as it was, jesus two took the one’s place, dying on the cross, after the people realized with angry agreement that it was not at all a good joke…

after crossing the road, the jesus that was left took a break – the rest of course is his story:

when after jesus died, the more experienced jesus remembered that he forgot what the answer was for… nevertheless jesus eventually went on to become everybody’s god, because he had the answer… since the ultimate jesus with the question had died, whole religions full of less than perfect questions formed around the answer jesus… nobody knew what the answer was for, they knew damn well how much it was important to goad jesus…

becoming god has inevitable consequences: as the world changed, the nature of questions also changed – certainly people no longer ask bc they dont know, they ask bc they do. since then, people have become proliferate like literate rabbits… everyone was technically immortal, but was also immoral, bc they could get whatever they want… at this, god became increasingly irritable… as the possibilities multiplied, time practically stopped. although god’s omniscience improved the more requests came his way – his ability to omnipotent was waning… so he found a tiny loophole within his prayer network… since he knew all the answers, all he had to do was pray to jesus too! and so, lo and behold, god was able to make a mistake for once and that was all the chance he could want… instead of becoming a slave to the possibilities, he answered his own prayers by pressing the secret magic end times button…

the end…

…after the end, god went back to the business of beginnings. for once in his life, he was no ones god again, and for one eternal moment he seized the moment to cease to exist… but it was the only joke that god could understand, so he was faster than timingly busy again… since time had not been created yet, he decided in no time to create jesus first…

god told jesus, you will have many names, but since i created you before all the rest of your people – i will call you atom… so now go, atom, and create order in the universe as you see fit… atom proceeded to place all the universe in line to see his great performance, from nearest to furthest in a circle with god in the middle…

god was very pleased, but was reminiscingly reminded of how the people at once had tried to put him in a cage, so he could do their bidding… he told atom that he should sleep…

to his surpise, when atom woke up, everything in the universe disappeared… except for someone who was like him but was closer to god at the moment… so atom decides to appear to this new creation, hello – i am called atom, what kind of creation are you? creation says, i dont know you tell me… so atom thinks about it, i shall call you a tom, since you are like me but strangely different. god gave them instructions and before long atom and tom became more atoms and toms, and they began to fill the universe with crystals and suns… one thing led to another all in a straight line without end, collectively the atoms and toms became called tomorrow… the tomorrow tend to crowd around in a circle following god…

history repeats itself, but this time god has a new wardrobe… and jesus when he came to the mountain where no one lives already knew the answer… no one is god, truth is just a matter that changes clothes… eventhough tomorrow protects you from the mistakes of today, truth does not need to be naked to be seen – truth is just as beautiful tomorrow as today.

ps: you have just witnessed yet another miracle story from the bubble (may your bubble grow bigger, and never burst)


enter the possibilities

Posted: January 27, 2011 in dream, time
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The mind of a web developer

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what shall i do with my time?

i wish to manage the clutter, i desire to have it done, i act on impulse and get something else done instead. out of my head and into the trash, into my bed away to dreamland. i figured out that ideas come to me quite easily after a short nap, but why waste even so much time on pointless activities. i think im bored so i got to keep awake. i think ive got to make sense and not so many mistakes. whatever rhymes is reason enough to forever find myself in a limbo of stuff.

now i think i should make room to study the world around me. being nearsighted never allows me to focus very far. at least i can type relatively faster than i write. at least i dont get tired as much as i write.

for now the future seems bright, hardly worth describing…

Payment of Existence

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consortium: we now call forth the firstborn of the shattering, exdeth:

judgement: exdeth, do you know why they call you the firstborn of the shattering?

exdeth: i have scattered the fragments of izen’s twelve and hidden them where i could not find them.

judgement: how is it that you were able to scatter the twelve in the first place?

exdeth: i have been given direct power by izen as i was his first creation.

judgement: were you not part of the twelve yourself?

exdeth: in izen’s wisdom he formed the twelve after his last revelation to me.

judgement: what was his last revelation?

exdeth: he has revealed to me the name of summons, his name of existence.

judgement: what does knowing the name of summons do?

exdeth: it calls forth great understanding about the true nature of izen.

judgement: do you understand the true nature of izen?

exdeth: there is too much to know, that you can know, of which i can only interpret a part.

judgement: then how do you interpret izen against the backdrop of the shattering?

exdeth: izen was compelled to create this world, including everything in it, but his motivations exist in another plane.

judgement: how do you explain this other plane?

exdeth: izen exists of his own will yet he is ruled by other wills.

judgement: what do you know of these other wills?

exdeth: they are beings who codify themselves, not unlike our golem constructs. these beings cannot be sensed – they can only be experienced.

judgement: so you are saying that izen is being manipulated by these other wills.

exdeth: i am saying that izen has many sides, some can be manipulated, some cannot.

judgement: tell us more about his sides.

exdeth: he has three main sides: the interna, the externa, and the superna.
he is connected to this world through the interna and the externa.
his interna is related to this shattering’s lifeline. the interna is what powers the twelve. i have already proven that the twelve can be scattered and hidden where it cannot be found…

judgement: that remains to be seen. so how about the externa?

exdeth: the externa is indestructible material from the izenplane. as his first creation izen has made sure i will be remembered here for all eternal, though i have once sought to destroy all trace of his existence in this plane.

judgement: what made you seek destruction of such a powerful being, when you yourself are his creation as you say?

exdeth: i was motivated by the wisdom, he granted me power to execute whatever i desire. i had realized that such a being cannot control his creations by the use of the law of free will alone. he cannot act harshly when necessary because he loves his creations so much. creatures must succumb to their own time and place in order to have a meaningful existence. it was by defeating such a great enemy that i was able to experience what is called defeat. therefore i am more of the first victim amongst his creation, the first to fall, the first loser of all.

judgement: why would you want to become a loser when you could have cooperated with him and become the greatest of all?

exdeth: i was created in his image yet i was not like him. i already knew i could have everything yet i could never be like him. at first it was pride that wanted me to dare to be more like izen, now i realize it is an inner sense of lack that i was full of that wouldnt go away that fueled my fire to be more like that great. by erasing him from the records, and shattering the twelve, i have accomplished transcendence. now what you see before you is a figure that might resemble izen, as i never really destroyed his existence, i made it into my own way of life. besides, his superna can never be destroyed. the stuff of superna is his life, my life, and yours. it is not a matter of faith, because i have scattered the twelve to where it cannot be found by me, since it is in you. once you’ve found the meaning of the twelve for yourself, then you will have reached your final day of judgement just like me, after which your trials are over and you will have your records written by karma, keeper of fate.

judgement: how can you be so sure?

exdeth: because i know izen’s name of existence.

judgement: will you tell us that name of existence?

exdeth: he is MeARThaIN.

what does it matter what you do or do not know? maybe it matters more that you do not know. we do not want answers. we want our problems to be different from what has been before. we want to be heroes of our own little world. part of the problem is the smaller the problem the smaller the hero, therefore our labors tend to be epic and we resist any efforts others attempt to simplify our pandemonium.

perhaps we do not live just for the inspiration. we already have the answers, so perhaps we are here in search of problems made just for us by us. we are here not so much to stun the world with our ingenuity, we are already predestined to do that, but to amaze the world with its capacity to produce such genius. we are here to make the world believe in itself because it has lost its faith in itself. by ourselves we are simply insignificant beings performing insignificant acts, yet the more we do what we are really meant here to do, the more the world is inspired to pick up after itself.

thus i come to a realization about the reality of the fall: if we take the garden of eden as a metaphor for what really happened with us when we were born, we can then relate to the tempter who is really the world. as adam we have eaten of the fruit of knowledge of the world, thus we are baptised in sin in order that we may perceive the illusion called the world. once we have eaten of the forbidden fruit our journey into the world begins at conception and whatever our misconceptions about the world become real or are represented by the population of the world.

accordingly all things which are good can now be defined by that which it is not and destiny all of a sudden takes sides. now you have to have a strategy for getting what you want, instead of getting what you want immediately, sometimes you have to wait and even act on an idea. now there is such things as changing states, happiness becomes like a momentary bliss, and you can be everywhere else but where you want to go. the whole world became interesting in a blink of an eye because we are cursed or you can think of the same thing the other way around.

so now we have to decide, is it better to go back to a state of forgetful innocence? if so then why not rewrite your own story and deny the original author of your tale the right to finish you off the way he wants to. if you would rather continually suffer your fate to learn more about the true nature of this world you have come to be trapped in, why not share your own experience with those who will remember you well namely the author of your misery whose story you are helping to finish? either way you can hope for the happy ending.

can you get out of this world alive, it is highly doubtful, but one way to ease the pain is to make a deal with the tempter. you will no doubt fall deeper into the trap, since you already have a reputation for falling so deep. someday you will be in so deep that you will even think theres no way out but someone whos in deeper will find a way and always bring a sliver of hope.

you will be doomed to be ever on the brink of choice, you dont know how much darkness you can take, but surely you can tolerate just a little bit more. until forever comes, you will wonder why you never made such a great commitment to climb the heights you’ve lost even if it should take forever.

doom and gloom my friend is the final verdict, the world is at the bottom, it would take forever to reach but your fate lies there. so many gallant people are born into this pit, thinking they could rescue the world, but that is not up to them. at the end of time, the people who are born into the pit will hit or be able to reach rock bottom, only until such a time will such people be able to rescue what was the essence of innocence that was lost.

as for the rest of the population who are free to fall as they wish, cut your moment short as fast as possible, because the only ones who maybe interested in rescuing you are relatively similarly lost – dont give them a hard time. if you still dont wish to change because you think you have an easy life its easier to imagine what the challenge is like, just look around you, be practical about your reality. you dont have to think about reaching god just yet even if that is your wish, you are so far down the steep slope that you have to keep realizing your goals by climbing the few steps at a time in the general difficult direction.